I keep waking with the same bad dream, I feel I am falling and when I manage to go back to sleep I fall again.

Although I do not see anything when I fall I am quite aware I am doing it but there is no ground beneath me just a haze.

Managing my sleep is a lot easier than it used to be, as I often found myself lying awake for hours and sometimes feeling I had had no sleep at all.

I make sure I am up and moving around quite early in a morning then I keep myself busy for the day with a fairly structured routine.

It would however be quite easy to slip back into lying in till late because I feel bad some days, but it wouldn’t benefit me in the end as it would become a vicious cycle.

Structure and routine are a massive part of my life knowing what I am doing when.

This sometimes can become a pain for others though as I see my partner on certain nights a week and if for some reason he needs to change the night I can become a little uneasy about it to say the least.

But this is where I need his support and understanding and slowly I am starting to relax more about certain elements of my need for familiarity.

And although this may seem quite abnormal this is a part of my illness and one by one I will break all my boundaries because I know I am more than capable.