When I need support I do have some people I can talk to. Despite this I saw a councilor today; she was nice but I’m not sure emptying my heart to a stranger is something I can do easily.

I miss certain people in my life and that is something I am supposed to be able to deal with, or at least I’m hoping time will give me that.

Although I never want to forget these people, I am afraid if I am able to deal with losing them it could lead to me forgetting them. The way they smelt, there touch and much more.

I just don’t want to explain all this face to face; particuarly with someone who doesn’t care about me and my problems.

As I sat there she was very quiet and I felt like I didn’t know where to start or even what to say. I resented her questions and was quite reluctant to respond.

I felt like I was trapped and backed into a corner, yet it was a discussion I had longed to have. I just wished it was with someone I knew would understand; someone who is not a stranger to me.

Will I ever move on without being able to open up?