Today I woke dreading the day ahead, I had managed to get about four hours sleep.

I don’t know what came over me but spending time alone with my thoughts always leads to me desperately wanting someone to talk too.

I knew today just wasn’t going to go well for me, after my morning shakes and nervousness I managed to pull myself together and have a hot bath to soak away my restless night.

I find being occupied helps me but you can’t always surround yourself with people, but not just that sometimes that can add fuel to the fire.

I often end up trembling and nervous in crowd’s just wanting to escape to be alone.

People say think positive and forget the negatives but it isn’t always that easy, not in my world anyway.