A day of anxiety and pressure
Today I woke dreading the day ahead, I had managed to get about four hours sleep.
I don’t know what came over me but spending time alone with my thoughts always leads to me desperately wanting someone to talk too.
I knew today just wasn’t going to go well for me, after my morning shakes and nervousness I managed to pull myself together and have a hot bath to soak away my restless night.
I find being occupied helps me but you can’t always surround yourself with people, but not just that sometimes that can add fuel to the fire.
I often end up trembling and nervous in crowd’s just wanting to escape to be alone.
People say think positive and forget the negatives but it isn’t always that easy, not in my world anyway.
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January 2nd, 2009 at 10:30 am
Amanda,
I have experienced anxiety attacks for as long as I can remember. I have never sought help or advise, always having the feeling that this is just who I am, and I just need to get through the situation and move on. My social activity is mainly concentrated with family and very close friends. I am able to function in these situtations without much anxiety, but feel much more comfortable in situations with little social interaction.
My work in a manufacturing office environment. I enjoy my work as long as I am not placed into a position of having to address a large crowd. If this situation is forseen, maybe a presentation scheduled for the following day, I literally panic myself into a nervous wreck. I have actually lost my voice after a couple of sentences and struggled very nervously through the remaining presentation. I have not been able to improve this situation and feel very defeated when it occurs.
I think there is some chemical reason that this extreme panic consumes me. I function relatively well in my current social and work environment, but become very distressed that I can’t seem to overcome this nervousness or at least manage it to the point that it doesn’t negatively affect my life.
My feelings have real simularities to the feeling that you have expressed. I haven’t consulted a doctor about this problem yet, but just wanted to put myself out there to gain some experienced insights into ways to deal with this anxiety.