Depression Blog

This is a beautiful and fragile interpretation of how depression eats away at the person we are and how we feel we have to put a mask on to face every day life.

One day if we aren’t careful we will destroy all of the person we really are by faking something as innocent as a smile.

You may think you know me,

But you know nothing of me

Only who I pretend to be,

The real me, sits inside rotting away.

- Anonymous

We can all find it hard to do those things we want to but finding the fear and challenging it could be the first step.

I choose not to do certain things because I am scared of either failing or beating my fear.

Panic attacks are a big thing for me and I know I have power over them to an extent however if I put myself in to a situation where I feel less then comfortable, then I am quite aware I may trigger the over whelming panic.

Fear is what drives me a lot of the time and I can’t help but feel like I’m trapped by it.

When I feel at my worse but I know I am going to push myself I take myself to somewhere I feel safe in my mind and I project all the negative thoughts into pictures.

Once enabling myself to do this I then picture them in frames and focus on them in black and white.

You can then reduce the size of the image in your mind and remove it slowly out of focus and eventually out of sight.

This is a very good way of minimising your stress levels and removing the thought from your mind.

I practise this on a daily basis to get the best results and within time you will feel the difference it makes too.

Recently there has been a significant rise in young women who have been misdiagnosed with clinical depression due to their premenstrual syndrome.

It is said that the psychological symptoms are very similar in both mental and hormonal patients, and unfortunately this makes the condition harder to diagnose.

The National Association for Premenstrual Syndrome have advised that women suffering from hormonal problems will usually start to be affected by these symptoms around a week before their period starts. The effects can then go on to last around 2-3 weeks, leaving approximately 2 weeks each month symptom free.

If you are unsure if you have been misdiagnosed then we recommend keeping a daily diary for a period of 3 weeks documenting your mood swings and emotions. You can then approach your GP with your findings.

I have found that from my personal experience that it can be difficult keeping a diary expressing your emotions. From experience, I would suggest that you mark your daily moods out of 10 and briefly detail your feelings such as how vulnerable you are feeling. If your finding that your forgetting to fill in your diary then it may help you to keep it next to your bed or by your make-up mirror.

Although anti-depressants can work for both conditions it is thought that they should be considered as a last resort for PMT as there are less drastic treatments that would offer similar benefits.

Sarah Jarvis from The Royal College of General Practitioners has indicated that a lot of women want a ‘quick fix’ and solutions straight away; due to this doctors often reach for the prescription pad.

If you are being treated for depression and have any doubts about your diagnosis then I would strongly recommend you take a daily diary as detailed above and then consult your GP with your findings.

This quote I have always found remarkable, as not only has the importance of how we all aspire to having happiness been captured here, but also that gaining this could be the one thing to make life seem almost pointless.

Happiness is a million miles from where I’m stood,

And when I reach happiness I will be sad.

- Anonymous

Today was the first time I have woken in a very long time and just wanted to never wake again.

I know this is a very strong thing to say and I am not seeking attention by admitting to this on my blog, but just for you to know how I feel inside.

My fear and regrets have come back to haunt me for everything bad I have done in my life and for every person I have ever hurt.

Looking on my depression as a punishment is quite normal in my eyes, I do believe in karma and the ever popular saying “you reap what you sow”.

Maybe that is my problem I feel I need punishing for something, but I cant quite put my finger on what?

Sometimes I just think this world would be a nicer place without me in it.

I particularly like this poem because it makes me want to push on when times are getting bad and nothing I seem to do goes right.

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will
When the road you’re trudging seems all uphill
When the funds are low and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh
When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest if you must, but don’t you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and turns
As every one of us sometimes learns
And many a fellow turns about
When he might have won, had he stuck it out.
Don’t give up though the pace seems slow
You may succeed with another blow.

Often the goal is nearer than
It seems to a faint and faltering man;
Often the struggler has given up
When he might have captured the victor’s cup;
And he learned too late when the night came down
How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt
And you never can tell how close you are
It may be near when it seems afar;
So stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit
It’s when things seem worst that you mustn’t quit.

- Anonymous

When focusing on your fears you become more aware of them, once you are fully aware of your fears you can deal with them.

Don’t let fear hold you back, take control and pave your own destiny.

There are many key things anyone can do to beat the blues, weather it be connected to SAD, depression or just generally having a bad day.

Keeping fit is a brilliant way to release endorphins which is key to producing analgesia which in turn promotes a sense of well being.

I am always more up beat and confident in myself after I have done a Pilate’s class.

The reason I mention Pilate’s is because it is a great work out for both men and woman of all ages and also doesn’t discriminate against disabilities.

Even if you don’t quite feel ready to face the world there are great Pilate’s dvds for beginners right the way through to the advanced techniques.

So why not take the time to exercise, it has been proven for mind body and soul.

My neighbour has been drilling and making the most horrendous noises for most of the day and I am slowly loosing it.

All my doors and windows are shut yet all I can hear is the loudest most annoying noise.

I know it is day time but still I just feel like screaming at him, my head is pounding and I am beginning to get very upset about this.

I wish I too could see to putting myself first and holding my own aspirations above others.

Always bear in mind that your own resolution to succeed is more important than any other.

- Anonymous